I really appreciate and grateful for the love and care that he had showered me throughout the years.. He really makes me feel like a princess.. :) Though the reason for breaking up was given but inside my heart, there's still doubt..

Been crying and not able to eat well, i know it gonna carry on for the next few days... Smile on my face, but heart aching at the same time... Really felt like part of me was gone but since there's really no chance for us to carry on, maybe the choice that I've made is the best...

Though he didn't make the decision, but through his words, it seems to be obvious that we are unable to carry on.. Maybe no matter how hard i beg, but again if my love has to be beg to continue, it is not love anymore.. Only pity...

I really wanna thank everyone specially my family for being there for me.. I know it's heart-aching for them to watch me cry but i really cannot help it.. 6.5 years of relationship and memories has just all become a past for me in a night.. Those promises and sweet-talk had also turned into a memory... I really cherished and believe everything he told me, every promise he made... He's so far the one i really trust and love with all my heart...

Seriously, truth is always hard to accept and I've been struggling till even now.. Everything really feels unreal for me.. I still yearn for him.. For his hug and kiss.. But it would never happen again..

Maybe i've been pampered too much by him that i'm really at loss without him.. He has been the one that i would confide everything, help me when i'm making decision, give me encouragement when i'm down.. He's the one who has been pulling me through the tough times.. Now I've to grow up and face everything on my own n I'm scare.. Without him, it's like i'm without an armour..

I'm still missing him every min, thinking what he is doing and how is he doing.. Is he doing well without me? I still wanna know everything about him.. Is hard for me to cry now.. Not only it makes everyone worry about me and i'm afraid that i cannot stop crying once i start..